January 2012
2 posts
Ah.
It’s getting to be too much. I know I should be a little more considerate since I did break up with him out of nowhere after three years but he’s honestly making me sick. I do not find it cute at all when he begs for me to talk to him and give him another chance. I do not find it romantic when he tells me that he’s loved me since the day he met me and will never be happy again.
...
1 tag
But It Won't Matter.
Last.fm - Taking Back Sunday Radio
Phase 1. I am the heart-breaker. I am the one who dated a guy for three years and out of the blue broke up with him for a completely incompetent reason. I am the girl he cries over. I am the girl he can’t get over & cannot quit thinking about. I stole his soul. It was almost like I was literally a part of him, and for me to just leave - he is empty....
December 2011
7 posts
009
I’m lonely & I’m broken. I do not know why, but I have yet to feel anything from this. I like it though - but why? And I am scared that he may want to go to the next level, but I do not want that. I just want this. Friendship, I guess really. But I still want to cuddle. I just want someone for myself.
Why am I scared? I am not who I was. I used to thrive for these moments....
I could have loved you.
Won't you rescue me?
Wolves at Night - Manchester Orchestra
I’ve tried all this, and all that. And where did I end up? I am just this little fish with this little heart and desire for these little things to bloom and become beautiful and long lasting. But where do they go? They never quite make it. Not here, at least. Not to my reality. I don’t know where they go. Perhaps continue on in the...
When all you want to be is in a dream.
I don't want to remember your voice singing to me.
Coheed & Cambria
I still think about it, and I do not know why. I live in this world. Time and time again. I talked to you. I carried on an interesting conversation all day, every single day. Sometimes they were even too long for the day, and they would carry on flawlessly into the next. Why was I so happy? How did I miss that you weren’t?
I promise that I don’t want to...
004
I had a nightmare last night. At first it started on this platform in the middle of a body of water. Or at least that’s where it becomes the most clear. And we were being chased by these big creatures. And someone threw something into the water that would have lead these creatures to the platform, so we had to jump off. And towards shore we swam.
We got there. We were in this building,...
Please, don't.
Why were you in my dream last night? I was sitting in a car in your garage and you and Tina went in real quick, and she came out wearing one of your jerseys, and carrying one of your jackets. I was mad, and I yelled. You whispered to me “Yes, I like what you’ve changed into.”
November 2011
2 posts
I used to be so passionate.
Now what do I write about? I don’t have love to go on about for hours on end.
But I like this guy way too much. It’s only been about a month and I’m already obsessed. I don’t know what can really even come out of this, though. I know that’s all I ever say, but it’s also all I can think.
I often bring up moving to Michigan, and I think I am trying to convince...
I might not be sleeping, but I sure am dreaming.
I don’t know what to expect of this. I mean I don’t know what he wants, and he won’t say. I know our plans are so different. And that’s why I am confused. What does he expect?
Why do things have to be complicated already. I like him so much, I swear that I do. I am being foolish, this I know. He is hurt. He isn’t ready. Or maybe this is what he needs. This is...