I don’t know what to expect of this.  I mean I don’t know what he wants, and he won’t say.  I know our plans are so different.  And that’s why I am confused. What does he expect?

Why do things have to be complicated already.  I like him so much, I swear that I do. I am being foolish, this I know.  He is hurt.  He isn’t ready.  Or maybe this is what he needs.  This is what the situation called for.

It’s funny how things happen.

He is just the most fascinating guy.  Everything about him, I adore.  He is witty and exciting.  He is willing to go places with me. :)  He is what I’ve been missing. What I’ve been needing.  Maybe he doesn’t believe in love, but so what.  If he just wants to have fun, we will have fun.  If he wants serious, I can be serious.  I want what he wants.  I swear I do.
Everything is so good when we’re together.  I feel so… absolute.  I know it’s cheesy but that’s how I am.  I thrive off of our time together.  I crave it all the time.  I know I can survive when we’re apart.  I know, I know.  But shew.

I am going to get hurt, aren’t I?  I shouldn’t give in to the enemy, after all.  But he’s so good at it.  It’s too soon for so much trust.  Anything can turn him.  What if she wanted him back?  What would he do then?  What would anyone do?

Why do I think so much.  Why am I so scared…

I hope it all works out.